Friday Night

and yet another month has past, probably more. So much has happened and there is so much to say, but then i remember this is a public forum and there are things that i would like to say that shouldn't be said. I could tell about my experiences with what seemed on the surface to be a decent possiblility for a long term solution to my unemployment situation, but ended up just confirming my worst impressions of human nature. I could share some love lessons learned. I could pile-on regarding past relationships. I could expound on the frustrations of trying to start up a new band. I could analyze the crossroads I am at in my life right now. I could chronicle my thoughts about religion, faith and "enduring to the end". I could brag about my kids. I could do alot of that cause there is alot to brag about.
I could wax poetic about the joy of being unemployed, unmarried, unengaged, unfettered and unbelievably content about it... well, except the unemployed thing. I could do all of that.
But, the new Van Halen album came out tuesday, and I am freakin' ecstatic. Honestly, it's not that great. It's solid and has some classic moments, but as I listen again and again to the songs, the words and music, one word keeps coming back to mind.. FUN... yea, its just fun. Van Halen has always been about ending the day with a smile on your face. So have I, or at least I've tried to be. Sure we all have our moments, but i've always tried to set that forth. Those who know me best can judge if i've been sucessful or not. But I'd like to think that resonates with people. At anyrate, the really fun part the last two days has been watching Kenny pick up on the vibe.. seeing him walk around the house humming "STAY FROSTY"

Ya, Life is good. Sure it's not perfect, nothing is, and it could be better. But you know what, I'm living life lessons learned. I keep reflecting on an exchange I had over the summer with my father... "are you happy" he said... and tho i knew what was coming, I said "yes I am " anyway. .... "you are happy ?" he asked incredulously . "how can you be happy, you have no wife, no job, no church calling, and no car."
well, I guess not, but I got a smile, and I got good friends, and most umportantly, I got a smile ..Stuff in life comes and goes.. as does Happiness based on that stuff. Like i said, I know where dad is coming from, and the things he believes create happiness. I just don't think that way anymore. for whatever reason, I don't put my happiness there, And I am glad i don't. I've always said, happiness is not an emotion, it's a state of mind.

I certainly hope I can stay frosty.